I’m not happy being a stay-at-home-mom. I tried to force myself into that role several times and we never got a long in the slightest.
Working, no matter where it’s been, has always been my “break” and I’ve enjoyed it the same goes for school. It’s been nearly 5 years since I’ve been able to call myself a stay-at-home-mom and I’m just now starting to feel the guilt.
It’s not the big things I’ve missed that bother me, it’s the little ones.
The Investigator played first base tonight, for the first time and got 3 outs. She has pictures on Tuesday and I’ll miss them too (leaving Dad to do her hair — yikes!) I can’t volunteer in the classroom because my schedule varies so much, and because of how long I was out sick in February/March I won’t be able to take any vacation time this summer.
I’m missing out on those quiet moments just before the sun goes down when everything seems perfect. I know that I’d be missing perfect even if I was at home since those are the moments of our dreams.
One of my favorite french expressions is thus: on fait ce qu’on peut meaning…you do what you can. I am a stay at home mom and it is amazing and difficult at the same time. I feel really blessed to be able to stay at home but sometimes you can’t….for a variety of reasons. Guilt just makes you feel bad about things…you’re doing a great job….just keep doing the best you can! and GOOD LUCK!