Archive for June, 2008

staying in the game

When I played softball I did wow or awe anyone with my overwhelming talent, but that’s not what this post is about, it’s about staying in the game mentally. When I was playing ball if I wasn’t into what I was doing, it wasn’t fun, the team could latch onto any negative vibes I had going, and basically it sucked. A lot.

I’ve decided that NCLEX is less about nursing knowledge and more about a mental game.

It’s not about IV skills, or how well you can put a foley in an elderly lady who has had her hips replaced.

It’s about the mental game, and going in feeling prepared. Having a mental list of techniques and strategies that you are going to use to get you through the test. Something to keep you in the game.

A support group is a good idea. Having a bunch of acquaintances say “oh you’ll be fine, don’t worry” does not count as a support group. Having a spouse who down plays the emotional rollercoaster that sitting for your NCLEX is doesn’t count as a support group either.

So many people told me “be prepared for all 265 questions and then you won’t be disappointed if it doesn’t shut off”

If that works for you awesome. It doesn’t for me. 265 questions and sitting there for 6 hours was completely paralyzing to me. I wouldn’t have been able to get past the first question staying in the game let alone through all of them. I went in planning on taking a break at 75. I can do 75 questions. I can even do 75 questions, go out and use the bathroom get a drink and walk up and down the hall and stretch a little and then come back and do another 75.

Be prepared that the time between when you take your test and when you get your results are exponentially more stressful than anything that happened before the test.

Go in confident. You’ve been through a nursing program you have the knowledge you need to pass, you can be a great RN. Hold your head high and walk in with confidence. Prepare for every ounce of that confidence to be sucked out of you as you leave the building and that’s ok. You needed it to test and you had it then.

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It just so happens that it IS too late for me to fail.


Because I have RN-BSN behind my name now, thank you very much!

If you are curious, I truly do think the entire “it’s not too late to fail” line was crap. It wasn’t motivating or inspiring, it just made us feel like the people who should believe in us the most don’t.

Not that it matters to me anymore.

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DH discovered what has flattened my squash, cucumbers, canteloupe, and pumpkins.


The kids named him Inchy and want him to live in the garden forever. Ummm, not likely. He’s eating it all! It’s bad enough that they don’t leave the peas alone long enough for us to do anything with them but now they’re inviting non-humans to munch on my plants? I don’t think so.

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regardless of what the mompires from the other team were saying.


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To be honest, I’m kind of freaking out about taking my boards. It’s not a eustress kind of situation where you put everything into motion to deal with what is coming up, it’s a paralyzing “holy crap! I have to take a major test a week from Tuesday that so much is riding on” kind of stress.

I took a practice test tonight and did learn a valuable lesson. I missed a couple in a row and was having a bad day anyways so I just kept going along doing worse and worse, feeling stupider and stupider. Me? an RN-BSN? Nah, just give me my camera and I’ll be good. There is a big need for starving artists right? So, I stopped and took a couple of breaths and blew off some unrelated stress and I started to be able to hear Marlene Hursts voice “that’s not nice…” and “you’re gonna pick {whatever} because you don’t know what to do?”

I did significantly better towards the end of the test even on things I knew nothing about. Time isn’t a problem with tests for me so I may be taking multiple breaks.

Since my new job has started I’ve had no time to spend in my yard with my flowers and I realized that I have nearly missed all of ‘iris season’ just stepping out quickly to take a few pictures.

This has some harsh shadows, but it was intentional and just for me. I feel like I’m dealing with some harsh direct lighting in my life right now as well as in this image.

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Glass glare.

Both girls got their glasses today, and I’ve only ever had to shoot a couple of people with glasses. I’ve never dealt well with glass glare, but what better time to learn to deal with it than now?

Along these same lines, The Informer learned that you can’t see if there is ice cream on your glasses.

My new photography challenge

Photo details, a quick snap taken in the front yard before I had to go my loverly PCA III meeting.

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Lemon boys, I also have some Mr. Stripey fruits starting. BLT’s and bowls full of tomatoes here I come!

Tomatoes 06-07-08

Also, I think I have it all figured out how to make my blog appear to be more of a 365 blog rather than bursts of random pictures blog. So to just be very transparent and up front, no I will not be blogging on days I’m working but you will have something new to look at.

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Just seeing if I can do a delayed post. If this shows up on Sunday instead of Saturday I’ll be happy and will have figured out the solution to my “too busy a few days a week to make this a true 365 blog” problem.

Delicate beauty

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When you are little and it the week before Christmas every day drags on for what feels like a week. Time seems to by so slow you aren’t sure if Christmas will ever actually be here. Logically you know it is coming but it just doesn’t feel very reassuring. You start to wonder if there have ever been years that Christmas got tired of waiting around too and never came.

That isn’t how this week was long.

I am through with my orientation with at the hospital and I start my intern rotations on Monday with medical oncology. I will still have 3 hour classes on Thursday but I can deal with that. Classes all day long every day all week was getting to me.

As a reward for making it through last week I am breaking my NCLEX rule today. I haven’t studied, I haven’t done a practice test, I haven’t even touched my Hurst book and I’m ignoring an email from our ATI lady is how far entrenched I am into not having studied today.

I dislike the busy ground with this one, the blurbs of bokeh light are very distracting. With my schedule this may be best shot I get of my irises this summer though.

The Trio

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